diary of a shy black woman series #001 – flashback

This is a new series.  A flashback series into an old blog I used to write. I’ve come a long way and am so glad I documented my experience back then.  Hope you enjoy and stay for the ride.  Hopefully my old readers find me on this new platform.  My experience is one that many of you are still experiencing and I hope you realize, by reading my story, that you’re not alone AND you’re still growing no matter how old you are – young or older. Don’t give up on you! I’m still a work in progress. I’m not 100% free of social anxiety and I’m not 100% “un-shy” and I’m okay with that BECAUSE what I am is a person that won’t let those factors get in the way of my dreams, my passions, my purpose…my life! And if I ever feel like they are becoming debilitating again, I’ll continue to challenge them.

My weekend started today. I spent my day off from work, cleaning and having a blast online, while the television kept me company in the background. If I were as social in real life as I am online then this would be the end of my blog. Unfortunately, I am what others call ‘painfully shy’. And I don’t use the word ‘painfully’ loosely. Since I can remember, I have always been shy and here I am in my 20’s…still as shy as I use to be and maybe even more so.

So, I welcome you on my journey to overcome this debilitating condition. I’m not sure what my first step will be but I’m making a conscious decision to take my life back. I want to enter my 30’s stronger than I have ever been in my life.

I have tried to overcome my social anxiety/phobias many times but for some reason I always met with yet another obstacle that made it difficult (i.e. lack of adequate health insurance to fund my therapy sessions, anxiety itself, etc.)

I’ll share the events of my life as a young black woman struggling to overcome my shyness in this aggressive world and by the end of my journey I hope to walk into my 30’s as a new woman.

So join me. Share my tears, my triumphs, my fears, my worries, my progress, my relationships, my life.

My journey starts today. Are you with me?

COPYRIGHT 2006 Published on 8/12/06